Where Does Happiness Live
Happiness resides not in possessions, and not in gold, happiness dwells in the soul. Democritus
I've fought with feeling sad since I graduated college. I used to believe I could buy my own happiness. I bought clothes. I bought shoes. I bought jewelry. The more I bought the sadder I felt. It just didn't make any intellectual sense to me. I was giving myself everything I thought I wanted. But I was tricked into thinking what I wanted by the consumerism society that we live in. I went to a therapist because my parents thought I was depressed. Apparently, though I feel sad, I wasn't diagnosed as depressed since I didn't meet all the clinical criteria.
The therapist did give me some great advice. She told me that only I control my own happiness. It doesn't come from the outside, it comes from the inside from you. Only you can make yourself feel happy or sad. Well, this statement empowered me and I decided to take ownership of my own happiness.
I took a look at my life since college. I didn't like the friends I had. I didn't like my job. I didn't like my boyfriend. So I took a drastic action and cut everything out. I dropped my so-called friends. I dropped my so-called boyfriend. I quit my job that I should never have took in the first place.
I've never felt so happy and powerful. I owned my life. I owned my feelings. I owned my happiness!
I'm glad I had the BabbleStash app to record my experience as I went through them. If I ever find myself in a rut in the future, I will look back on these recordings to remember how I felt and how I was able to change my life for the better.